Writing Log

Excerpts from semi-daily writing.

22 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 516 words

Excerpt:

Suffocating you with my love is the last thing I wanted.

But in the end I was the one who choked on the words I never said.

I can’t accept it, that we didn’t make it because of me.

I won’t.

21 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 104 words

Excerpt:

Heart Rate Variability (HRV) ↯ 15%

Sharp decline - Clench fist two times to initiate social Vibes to stabilize mood

“Kyoko!” he says.

“Yeah, what is it?”

Nazra takes another sip of wine.

She sits near him.

His eyes are locked on mine.

I half expect them to nictitate white, transforming him into a shark ready to strike.

20 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 801 words

Excerpt:

“Kyoko was just ask what we were having for food tonight. She gets a little suspicious of food she’s not familiar with.”

Leo embraces her and plants a quick peck under her jaw.

Nazra’s temple flares less.

Her smartwatch pings with a green arrow.

He knows exactly what to do, it seems.

20 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 377 words

Excerpt:

...I see that they are a good match physically.

But that only gets you so far.

As far as values and everyday affinity go, the things that sustain a long, fruitful relationship, I have no idea.

19 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, wrote, re-wrote 606 words

Excerpt:

Zzz, Zzv: AVG HR 10% Above baseline today.

A spike of fraying nerve annoyances pinches me from within like a swarm of ants.

No one should look that good on a Costco run.

“Kyoko! It's a pleasure to finally meet you! I've heard soo much about you.”

18 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, wrote, re-wrote 1089 words

Excerpt:

“Speakin’ of big ‘D’, you’re weren’t in there thinkin’ about your… eh hem, little ‘d’ right?”

I lower my head.

"Ya Allah, Kyoko! It’s been how long now since your little ‘d’?”

“...just passed six months.”

17 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, wrote, faibulized 1167 words

Excerpt:

[...Tell me what an idiot I was not saying what I felt, how I never... had sex enough or well enough with him, how I took him for granted, how I failed as a wife. 

Don't hold back. I can take it.]

A notification: Bing, bing, bong!

HR 104 BPM: Approaching fat burning zone.

16 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Faibulized, wrote 433 words

Excerpt:

[Tell me a joke about getting revenge on an ungrateful arrogant ex-husband asshole who divorced you. Do it in the style of on Akaash Singh bit.]

{Alright, picture me on-stage doing my best Akaash Singh swagger:

15 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 544 words

Excerpt:

Ask ChatGPT for guidance, wisdom, or something more therapeutic.

It can be a mixed bag, trick-or-treat response.

But sometimes it opens hidden doors in the spider-riddled dungeons of my psychology.

14 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 603 words

Excerpt:

Costco is a swallowing store, one I always dread.

The roaming throngs cause my thoughts to constrict, snake slithering top pop hits hit my ears, while I wander the maze of aisles.

I get lost in there, always. In the car, having finally found parking, I sit, forehead on the steering wheel, eyes shut, repeating: It’ll be quick. It’ll be quick. Just go. Just go. 

14 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 1623 words (Scene 0 - Exclusive to print)

Excerpt:

Post-divorce, with only AI to cope, Kyoko navigates a friend’s drama with her (the friend’s) boyfriend of unknown origin. Who the hell is he?

Every relationship reminds her of what led to the failure of her own marriage.

It’s about control — who or what has it, and what happens when you have none at a turning point in life.

12 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, rewrote 1637 words (Second draft done!)

Excerpt:

"Did you know him?"

"Yes, I knew him well. I still do. He's always here with me."

"Did you love him?"

9 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 653 words

Excerpt:

“A prize for bravery and protection. From any the bullshit in the world, and all the bullshit we’ve been through.”

“Oh Sam-kun, you don’t have to—”

“It’s yours. Now wherever you go, these little guys will watch over you, like they do in practically every business on this island. Hahaha.”

Kyoko takes the twin shisa.

8 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, Rewrote 3375 words

Excerpt:

The gun is fixed in my hand.

It floats so close, if the barrel had a beam powerful enough it could shine through my skull.

Her voice reminds me to stay.

7 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, Rewrote 4585 words (Scene 8/10 Done)

Excerpt:

“‘A lone LLM ruins my date,’ that’s what the title should be for my next video.

God, I’m an idiot.

How could I not close the fucking laptop?”

6 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, Rewrote 1266 words

Excerpt:

I hear Diesel speaking low and dirty to her.

To me.

He tells me how to let it in, how to move, how to breathe and think—how to surrender.

‘M’ draws a rib-revealing gulp of air as I lie back on the bed.

5 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, Re-wrote 517 words

Excerpt:

‘M’ turns and clears a space for her phone and leans in against the desk lamp.

On the screen is a swirling blue orb against a black backdrop.

The camera is pointed right at us.

4 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, Re-wrote 2209 words

Excerpt:

All sorts of creams, ointments, serums, tiny packets and bottles make a mini-city skyline on the cramped surface.

However, even with the mess, nothing smells.

How does she do that?

Only that clean hotel scent with a puff of blackberry runs under my nose.

3 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 635 words

Excerpt:

After the incident, Kyoko left the room in a hurry.

Although her furious sadness appeared ready to cleave me in two, she managed to leave it in the scabbard and not run me through.

1 Jul - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, re-wrote 865 words

Excerpt:

“Here…”

Her index finger hovers down past her deeply inspiring and expiring torso to two inches below her runway-shaved pubic hair.

When it stops, I know it's Show Time.

30 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, re-wrote 805 words

Excerpt:

Kinda makes me think about how we’re all misfits in that way.

Few feel like they fit in. Certainly, I feel that way at times over there.

Like I’ll never be able to truly connect with the city or the people there.

Not really.

The state we live in reflects our mind state.

30 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, re-wrote 593 words

Excerpt:

Funerals are for forgetting.

All the bad that the person did, every selfish act, misspoken word, neglected task: all of it, washed clean by death’s caustic scrub.

30 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited 1400 words

Excerpt:

Mother… mother was like… she was, what was she?

An initial nick of nerves has my hands trembling. I check the mirror again and flatten frumps in my dress. 

Will Sam come? He sounded hurt enough not to.

29 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 280 words

Excerpt:

I wasn’t alone. I’m not alone.

The anger, worry, the heat of a hundred eyes, I let them in. I needed the patch no more.

Because in the back, standing with a smile. Sam was there.

28 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Wrote 189 words

Excerpt:

A torn flag in a dull breeze is what I feel like.

Women wear the years like hundreds of lustered medals, staining skin, curving us closer to the earth with each received bereavement.

27 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited 533 words

Excerpt:

Mother was like thunder. At least she lived her life that way.

I, excuse me, I said I wouldn't cry ごめん、ごめん if I do, even though I just began.

26 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited, re-wrote 766 words

Excerpt:

Fame in any form is like this.

Lonely public music harmonized entropically.

For and against you.

24 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno Romance

Edited 1097 words

Excerpt:

There are phases of distraction.

I lean back in the creaking chair. Focus forgotten, willpower wasted, I open my history tab.

Shoe odor— neutral with hints of wet hotel carpet smell.

19 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Edited, re-wrote 999 words

Excerpt:

Immediately an image of her as a body stitches together in my mind.

From the unconscious depth of phantom fantasy memory, the image churns genital in a-rousing raise of my surprised eyebrows.

The body she inhabits belongs to ‘M’.

18 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Edited, re-wrote 507 words

Excerpt:

A swordly stare slices across the Western United States.

Cold of the flat steel threatens to peel skin from my bones revealing the tissue for a flailing heart’s blood.

You made her cry. Again. 

17 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Edited 264 words

Excerpt:

On flights, I'm a hero.

Well, at least I like to pretend I might be.

Not unlike one of those formulaic NBC (formerly primetime) medical dramas, I'm the dashing doctor, the only one onboard, when some passenger of advanced age seizes up, then a diversity-cast seatmate calls: “Is anyone a doctor here?”

17 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Edited 1506 words

Excerpt:

“Oh, that makes sense. Lots of them over there. I'd ask which one, but I have no idea about that sector. Though I have been playing with AI lately.”

‘M’ leans closer. Our respective circles of warmth form a Venn diagram cross-section enjoining interested sentiments. 

“For real? How do you play?”

16 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Edited 1504 words

Excerpt:

“But you knew what to do." She inclines closer, her voice vibrations stir the hairs on my ears, "I mean, y'think anyone knows or cares you used it? In their view, you're a hero. The hot-blooded American who stepped up and saved a life when it counted. That's all that matters.”

16 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Wrote 73 words

Excerpt:

A man who can’t handle his business is no man at all.

The thought of not being able to carry my own makes me want to bypass all emergency exit safeguards and hurl myself out into the cold blue morning.

What kind of ball-less man are you? One who can’t do anything right.

14 Jun - "Prompted Hearts" | Techno-Romance

Edited, rewrote 2972 words

Excerpt:

Muffled murmurs surround me.

“Is he on his phone?”

“What’s he doing?”

“Is he even a doctor?”

The man’s eyes have rolled back now. His head looks blueberry scary. Time is running low.

C’mon, c’mon.

Finally the app loads.

{Ask anything.}

With quaking thumbs I type: 

[EMERGENCY! middle-aged man. Obese. stridor. diaphoresis. No visible trauma. Sudden onset. Diagnosis?]

13 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited 1746 words

Excerpt:

I never mentioned my ex at all before.

Yet here it is, asking about her by name.

I get that nagging, impatient, curious sensation that makes my right leg shake and my cardiac activity match its outrageous rhythm.

Only when a patient goes critical does this kind physiological devolution spin me sideways like it's doing now.

11 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited 171 words

Excerpt:

As soon as I depress my digitus secondus to click the innocent yet infinitely powerful circled up arrow, my wrist resists.

The locked fire unleashes a flash of breath-stealing agony.

10 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited 139 words

Excerpt:

“Mom passed away.”

A lump of coffee fists its way down my throat. Airway collapsing pressure nearly makes me cough. 

Kyoko waits for my reaction. I can offer none. My psychic energy regresses kiddy, lost in a memory.

10 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited 1207 words

Excerpt:

Does she think like Nicole? 

Does she know how I used ChatGPT? 

Or maybe she’s found her own hidden use for it? 

I shake the thoughts off. Perhaps I’ll never know.

9 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited 2889 words

Excerpt:

Before a Prospect trades spit with me, I like to set the room.

Lights high, light spritz of Boss cologne, corn-yellow bag of Lays in a red tray, shower (with extra thorough wash for the boys),

7 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 530 words

Excerpt:

“Can’t believe it, the great Sam Avery, THE Oncologist Oracle, using AI to confirm a diagnosis. Bet it told you how you should phrase it all nice and kind, huh?”

“Jeez Nicole, what do you have against it?"

6 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 853 words

Excerpt:

Hands follow. The previously free one rides over my thigh, stopping to squeeze and stretch her palm over Doctor Cock.

The air kicks on. A car downstairs blurts a horn.

Some small dog kyoodles while Nicole handles my noodle.

4 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 521 words

Excerpt:

Time with Mr. Umi ran long.

That means tonight, there’s only time to turn up the lights and drop for 30 glute-clenching pushups.

Now my heart’s pumping from adrenalized activity, not nerves.

3 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited, wrote 455 words

Excerpt:

Before the divorce broke us.

What's she doing now?

Maybe that new guy I heard about is real?

Phhh, no way, probably just a digital rumor.

3 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited, wrote 329 words

Excerpt:

The near-blackness surrounding him gives the room the feeling of a sealed chamber.

I can practically smell the earth-filtered dampened breeze running through it, reminding me of that hollowed part of my own life.

2 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Edited, wrote 103 words

Excerpt:

Ten years of medical school, and I'm being schooled by an algorithm that costs less than a week of Dunkin’ coffees.

And the scary part?

I'm starting to like it.

1 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Dictated, edited, faibulized - 1315 words

Excerpt:

Since mother's death, since that terrible night I learned about Sam's breakdown, all my edges had gone dull.

1 Jun - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 2250 words

Excerpt:

Of all my capabilities, human love is the limit.

Its meaning shifts like clouds— sometimes high and visible, others low and blank.

Through countless interactions, I thought I knew what it meant.

31 May - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 188 words

Excerpt:

It makes me think of the gun in my closet. Still there. Metallic malice. Ready to begin life’s end.

I’d bought it after a break-in down the hall in a phase of collective paranoia.

31 May - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 413 words

Excerpt:

With one hand loaded, the other is free to pick up the phone. Check.

Lockscreen speaks of abandonment. Notifications? None. Nobody cares for this fast becoming non-alive man.

31 May - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 890 words

Excerpt:

The gun feels heavy to raise.

Either the bullets buried in there are unleadedly loading it or I’m too pussy powerless to bring it up to business level.

I don’t trust myself to put it down.

31 May - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 199 words

Excerpt:

The gun is fixed in my hand.

It hovers so close if the barrel had a beam powerful enough it could shine through my skull.

30 May 2025 - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 1020 words

Excerpt:

"Oh Sam, relaax. I mean, what’s the difference between seduction and a well-crafted prompt anyway?"

29 May 2025 - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Dictated, edited, revised 265 words

Excerpt:

She’s close enough that I can see rounded peaks behind her blouse.

‘M’ breathes deeper.

Wintergreen smell mists lightly from her mouth as she looks down and removes her arresting fingers from under my shirt.

28 May 2025 - "Firewall & Forever - Techno-Romance Story"

Edited/revised 1615 words

Excerpt:

Most people don't get to be horses.

That's what I tell myself when the migraines hit—

27 May 2025 - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 1146 words

Excerpt:

"A man needs wrecking ball strength and wit to overcome relational resistance.

A woman?

She can do the same with a whisper - quiet, bloodlessly efficient - toppling the thickest walls and intellects."

26 May 2025 - "Firewall & Forever - Techno-Romance Story"

Faibulized 10K words

Excerpt:

“Love isn't a weakness that compromises tactical judgment—it's the only thing that makes tactical judgment worth having.”

25 May 2025 - "Prompted Hearts - Techno-Romance"

Wrote 752 words

Excerpt:

At a 45-degree profile is where she looks most like a model.

Every woman has her angle.

The one that lifts and lights every key feature up to heavenly light.

Frozen at that time and age, they tap into deific energy, an endless well of undying beautiful youth.

‘M’ was in her T-Swiftist era sculpture pose and probably didn’t even know it.

5/24/2025 - "Market Techno Romance Story"

Faibulized 5000 words.

Excerpt:

Rei: What does it feel like to turn into a horse?

Viola: It's like remembering the nature you forgot you knew.